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Scenes from Quarantine: Furniture

We moved back to our old house after shelter-in-place was instituted, and found furnishing a bit of a challenge, with so many stores shut down. However, being stuck at home and having a little extra time isn’t always a bad thing. Working from home definitely has its perks: no commute, and lunch hour can be […]

Cousin

sometimes when I put on a little too much makeup drink a little too much and smile in a certain way in the fuzzier hours of night I see her face in mine at first a shock but then I welcome it because I find it’s the closest thing to bringing her back to life from […]

Black Fiona

sometimes in the afternoon sun I catch my black cat out of the corner of my eye in the magical recesses of periphery and I see instead my dead black cat gone for over a year slinking toward me her claws tapping the cold kitchen tile fat slow and so endearingly ordinary looking for solace […]

Boredom

Well, I said, sipping cold coffee in the sun Your hero – He could stop neither time nor his sister’s moral degradation and You two look like a couple of washed-out whores. You gonna make some money tonight? You see? Here we are Two decades later Also unable to stop time and our own moral […]

Joe

Was the last straw They used to chain smoke together on her balcony and laugh at the morning dew Make cocktails in the early evening and talk about the future I used to watch them and think Maybe this is it But he inevitably disappointed her With his bad cocaine habit Joblessness Unreliability Weight gain […]

Eric

He was irritated, she could tell, and she said not to worry, but I have actually slept with 69 people, as of this day, June 9, and can you feel the syphilis eating away at your own brain? Myself, I have less thoughts these days. All the better as I deliver this morose letter to […]

Tim

I heard them in the bunk above didn’t like the way he said her name but she liked it, giggled until her cheeks were pink and eyes were bright Until two weeks later he said He was driving across the country with his ex girlfriend Mary And I fed her whiskey all night then held […]

a rainy night long ago

if she looked into the dark far enough hard enough she could smell that night its rain and promises then the mustiness of old youth appears dusted off in the sunshine like a stranger knocking on the door

the night

we were looking at the pulsing stars then we blinked and the sky was gone i reminded him i did not promise you anything

Don’t Leave Me in Cyberspace Let’s Go Get Coffee

Don’t leave me here with him in cyberspace  But she always did In filthy cyberspace, or at a table in our coffee shop with old men And her thoughts left with her on the last train taking flight before he sat down across from me You’re Christian, aren’t you? No, no I am not. I […]

Scenes from Quarantine: Food

We cook a lot anyways, but having an extra 40 minutes a day because there’s no commute to/from work just makes cooking that much easier. The usual: salsa and hummus with our beloved food processor. I did not know I needed a food processor in my life when Michael bought us one in 2008, but […]

Scenes from Quarantine: Beer

The last couple of years, I’ve migrated my preferred beer selection from standard IPA’s to hazy IPA’s. They tend to be fruitier, lighter, and easier to drink, and are particularly delicious in the warm weather. However, they lack the potent, bitter, hoppiness of original IPA’s and the sweetness comes through more, so sometimes, after a […]

Purse

The first sentence of her novel came to her 2 minutes before she fell asleep, then slipped into the vagueness of night, never to return. However, she did remember The second time she was at his apartment, she found a stranger’s purse under his pillow. It belonged to a beautiful, delicate, Russian girl who majored […]

Whispering Willow

the willow wobbled at me in the wind and whispered asking me when i’ll have free will again

Composers

Bedtime, two nights ago *Clair de Lune plays on white noise machine* Me: That’s Debussy. Vale: Debussy. *New World Symphony plays on white noise machine* Me: That’s Dvorak. Vale: Dvorak. Me: Very good. *Twinkle Twinkle plays on white noise machine* Me: Mozart. Vale: Mozart. *Second movement of Pathetique plays on white noise machine* Me: Beethoven Vale: Vivaldi. Me: What? […]

February 28, 2019

Today, after work, Vale refused to wear a diaper after I took her dirty one off so I let her run around diaperless while we ate strawberry Special K cereal and played a matching game involving female role models. In some ways I’m the same person I was when I was 19.

Vale Turns One

Vale turned one recently. We already celebrated her birthday with family a couple of weeks earlier, so we did not have another party. However, she did have a little celebration at daycare, and exhibited some pretty greedy behavior, reaching for a second donut while the first was still unfinished, in her mouth (let’s be honest […]

Vale at 11 Months

At this stage in life, it is apparent Vale has opinions about things. She does not like putting on clothes (let’s see how this plays out when the weather gets cooler, kiddo!). She does not appreciate being dragged away from things and “goals” she intends to pursue, e.g. breakable dishes, electrical sockets, bottles of wine, […]

Wasting

She came home smelling like him, his scent lingering pleasantly all day Lost her Jack to a cop Forgot who Arvan was (possibly someone’s drug dealer) Resolve bubbled and floated away into the air along with sobriety She was tracing his contours at the end of the night While ravaging liquids romanced in the bones […]

Watching

It’s true what they say You love her so much it hurts So you watch her sleep

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.” -- Oscar Wilde

五花馬,千金裘, 呼兒將出換美酒, 與爾同銷萬古愁。